[s19e16] Who's Brian Now? Official

He wasn’t the Brian who had clumsily tried to navigate a relationship with her years ago. He wasn’t the Brian who had barely survived his stint in Internal Affairs. This Brian wore the skin of a man who had seen too much and done too much to ever really come home.

Liv? he whispered, the name sounding like a prayer he’d forgotten how to say. [S19E16] Who's Brian Now?

He’s a brother, Fin, Olivia replied, her voice steady but thin. If he’s gone deep enough to lose himself, we’re the only ones who can pull him back. He wasn’t the Brian who had clumsily tried

As they walked out into the cold Brooklyn air, the sirens fading into the distance, Brian looked at the city skyline—a place he had protected, a place that had broken him. He wasn't the Brian of ten years ago, and he never would be again. But as Olivia opened the car door for him, he realized that being lost didn't mean he had to stay gone. If he’s gone deep enough to lose himself,

The trail led to a derelict warehouse in Red Hook. The air smelled of salt and rust. Olivia ignored the tactical team's whispers, her eyes fixed on the steel door at the end of the hall. When they breached, it wasn't a firefight. It was a wake.

We’ll find him, Brian, she said firmly. We’ll find the man you were. But for tonight, you’re just a guy going home.

I don't know where the lie ends anymore, he muttered, his head dropping. I did things. I stayed silent when I should have moved. I looked at the mirror this morning and didn’t see a shield. I just saw him.